I've Hurt Myself by Hurting You - C.E.

"I've Hurt Myself by Hurting You" (Title from "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera)
To: J.

I smile
but there is still the pain of you
that coats the color of my lips.
I laugh
but there is still the pain of you
that undertones every sound.
I live
but there is still that pain of you
that pricks my insides from your absence.
I speak
and even though it is to everyone but you
two words want to escape to find your ears:
I'm sorry.