Jonathan's Poem (from the Black & White Affaire)

there will always be that time

there will always be that place 

there will be the way you look at me

but you'll never see my face

you'll never see my heart

as it is buried in the robes

that hang as black as your two eyes

as deep as darkness goes

every time we meet

the reminder's there you love me

but our kiss falls short because we know

that it's not meant to be

however hard i fight

the good fight that God has gave

my body is the gilded cage 

imperfect perfection wholly made

and you, you perfect sinner

with an angel on your sleeve

you're beautiful in every way

though you're not mine to keep

you lock your heart inside a box 

and say you've lost the key

but i've seen the way she reads your mind

and it hurts that it's not for me

the pain of every word we share

the joy i feel when you smile

despite how wide the flesh wound grows

there is comfort in denial

i can't love you so i'll hate you

you murderous love of mine

and with every twist of your perfect blade

i find in you i'm more intertwined

the only redemption for a bleeding soul

so in love and in such unrest

comes with the twinkle in two dark eyes

and soft lips unprepared to confess

yet every time my heart does break

at the direction that you go

i see the love and i'm sure you're happy

and to survive that's all i need to know.