The sink is full again and there's no one to do the dishes.

My brain is racing
And I'm sitting here tasting
All of the nasty
Misleading
Words I've said again.
And you keep on wasting
Away from this place - is
Tainted, and evasive
Is my attitude
Friend.
How can I cure you
When I don't have a cure for myself?
I need help.
Put my life on the shelf
And surmise
The diseases
Find out what pleases
Me - damn, I need Jesus
The devil doth teases
Me, coming nightly
Just get thee behind me.
And daily
I'm strangely
Charmed by the crazies
And I admire their song,
How they bleed,
Carry on
with their dreams.
And I cannot
Fathom to use this blade freely -
I'm a pussy.
And I wish it
Was easy
To take a step back
and observe.
So fucking caught up in the words
Thinking these humans
Will get the desserts
They deserve,
And I'll serve
All that shit on a silver platter,
Enforcing the code
That it all doesn't matter.
But I digress,
Wipe the tears
Off my chest
And absorb all the mess
As one of life's
Many lessons. Just lessen
The hurt and the pain
And confusion and the strain
On my brain
Late at night
When I'm holding you tight
But your dreams
Are far away
On the carbon copy
Of the sway of my hips
On her lips
And the chance
To sneak a peek
At her tits.
It's not cheating! Because
It's all in the mind:
role reversals - let's
Hit it now from behind.
And I'm staring forward
Looking at a reflection
Of me
As I cry into the night
Daydreaming and wondering
Where I'd be
Six feet under ground;
Free as a bird
In a box
Free of thought,
Free of sound.
And the dirt,
It cascades all around.
I'm okay.
I'm just knocking
On forbidden doors.
Tattooed on my chest:
Just a rant, nothing
More.