Think About Me.

And when you find yourself getting lost in her eyes,
take a moment and think about me.
She's perfection in a devilish disguise,
but take a moment and think about me.


Beautiful spirit's beckoning you in
A welcoming addiction just dripping with sin
A mold to be broken in your wildest dreams
No time to consider she's loose at the seams


Shut the door, lock it tight.
Hold it close, it's going to be alright.
Go at it, soldier, you're more than able;
just disregard my dying heart there on the table ...


And when you find yourself getting lost in her trance,
take a moment and think about me.
She aims to please with every hungry glance,
but take a moment and think about me.


Legs for days and all the right curves
Enough release to calm all of your nerves
But not to complain, I still sitting here
Waiting patiently to disappear


Shut my mouth, close my eyes.
Breathe in deep, it's going to be alright.
"Keep strong, lady, you're more than able;
Maybe soon he'll see it bleeding on the table ..."


And when you find yourself getting caught in her web,
take a moment and think about me.
Infect your heart and then she'll eat your head,
but take a moment and think about me.


Take a moment and think about me. 


I'm not the beauty.
I'm not the dancer.
But she's just a question 
and I'm the answer.
You dance on thin ice.
And I've forgotten how to swim.
If you should fall,
I don't know if I can jump in.


And when you find me standing close to the edge,
take a moment and think about her.
The waterfalls of tears from the lies that you said,
just take a moment and think about her.
And when you find yourself getting lost in her eyes,
I'll take a moment and think about you.
I'm not jealous, I just won't live in a lie,
that you couldn't take a moment to think about me.

Ben of the Sea.

Emerald green eyes.
Freckles scattered like sand.
Chest broad like a dune.
Sunset equivalent tan.
Brown gnarls like seaweed.
Precise streamline hands.
Waves kiss your body
as it boldly commands.
Every curve a rip current.
Stay afloat if I can.
I was just a little girl.
You were already a man.
You were worse than a dream.
You were the real thing.
You were the first fucking being
I'd ever end up seeing
like a mirage on the surface.
No matter how hard I tread
the current swept you away,
lost to the swells of my head.
Buried treasure lost forever.
We were never meant to be together.
Just two shells on the shore,
that was it, nothing more.

The Mighty Chains of Wonderment.

I'm still waiting on that fondest recollection
of that cookie-cutter image of the one I was inside.


And as the pieces of this mask fall out of place
the more I realize how none of the shades of paint match.


And I wonder desperately if they ever actually did.
I wonder if the wings of hope had been clipped at birth


Without the insatiable hunger to drive the wounds to flight.
But I discover my ship's lost on a sea of wonderment,


Having forgotten this fearless mast of pursuit.
Too many questions found and too many answers lost at sea


Because all of the treasure we hunted after was frivolous. 

Jonathan's Poem (from the Black & White Affaire)

there will always be that time

there will always be that place 

there will be the way you look at me

but you'll never see my face

you'll never see my heart

as it is buried in the robes

that hang as black as your two eyes

as deep as darkness goes

every time we meet

the reminder's there you love me

but our kiss falls short because we know

that it's not meant to be

however hard i fight

the good fight that God has gave

my body is the gilded cage 

imperfect perfection wholly made

and you, you perfect sinner

with an angel on your sleeve

you're beautiful in every way

though you're not mine to keep

you lock your heart inside a box 

and say you've lost the key

but i've seen the way she reads your mind

and it hurts that it's not for me

the pain of every word we share

the joy i feel when you smile

despite how wide the flesh wound grows

there is comfort in denial

i can't love you so i'll hate you

you murderous love of mine

and with every twist of your perfect blade

i find in you i'm more intertwined

the only redemption for a bleeding soul

so in love and in such unrest

comes with the twinkle in two dark eyes

and soft lips unprepared to confess

yet every time my heart does break

at the direction that you go

i see the love and i'm sure you're happy

and to survive that's all i need to know.